Had so much on lately but keep thinking up more things to do...like a crazy fool! I have just been making Ethan some more cheese and carrot pretzels for snacking but the thing is...I forgot the cheese...Oops! Tasted them and although they are much blander, they are still very moreish...good to know the recipe still works when you miss a major ingredient out. Since that homemade challenge though, I have found it easy to schedule in time to bake snacks for Ethan to eat ready for the next few days. It's saving money as well as being healthier which is great.
I wrote my business plan today for setting up as a childminder. It's helped clarify a lot of things in my head and reassured me that a lot of the information from the first briefing session last night went in. The second briefing session is next week where we will fill in forms to become registered and find out about training. It's scary to be setting up my own business but now I have Ethan I want to spend as much time with him as possible and go back to work in January with a heavy heart only lifted by the knowledge I will be being made redundant in the next few years and it's only 2 days a week til then.
As well as that I am well on the way to setting up a Sands (stillbirth and neonatal death charity) support group. I have a few fundraisers in the pipeline and will be going away to train as a befriender soon. When Jack died we got so much support and it helped us not fall apart and find the courage to move forwards...if I can offer others a supportive environment where they can find healing and strength I will be so happy. I feel like it's a vocation - my pain feels like it was meant to happen in a way so I could help others.
Better get to bed...going to a maternity services liason committee meeting in the morning to represent Sands on the committee. Then a relaxing afternoon with Ethan I think...he gets very cross if I don't take him to the park for a go on the swings every day now!